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Dear Miranda,

So Hey Girl.... Heres What I Did In Your Journal minus the one page I just got finished ... hope you like it so far... i am going to work on more later today... 

see you around,

Heather

I Wanna Be The One
I Wanna Be The One...

I Wanna Be The One,
that can talk to anyone and everyone..

I Wanna Be the one,
The One that holds her head up high and walks with confidence..

I wanna be the one,
the one who doesnt give a fuck what others think...

I wanna be,
the one that believes she is pretty...

I wanna be the one,
who knows she wont lose you

I wanna be the one,
who doesnt push you way

I wanna be the one,
who doesnt question what u say

I dont wanna be me..

I can remember the days of my childhood, back when I used to enjoy the rain.
The world was mine to explore.
My days were playing and having fun.
I didn’t mind mud and dirt stained clothes and hands then.
Oh how nice it was to be young and carefree.
It was such a simple life, but now it’s all gone.

Those days are definitely gone.
I no longer like the rain.
My days are far from carefree.
There’s no time to explore.
Living my life was a billion times easier then.
I’ve completely forgotten the meaning of the word fun.

College isn’t always classified as fun.
Most of my time to enjoy my self is gone.
Things were so so much easier way back then.
Mainly because we were free from most of authorities’ reins.
The world used to be ours to explore.
Now our days are far from carefree.

Oh how I wish my days were still carefree.
I wish my life was still as fun.
I wish the world was still mine to explore.
I’m a bit upset my opportunity is gone.
I’ve taken the reins,
And now I have a different life to explore.

I really miss my life back then.
Oh how I wish my days were still carefree.
I’d be able to enjoy the rain.
I wish playing in the rain was still fun,
But the enjoyment I got from that is gone.
I now have a different path to explore.

The beginning of my life as an adult is what I must explore.
Life was definitely so much easier then.
It was such a simple life, but now its gone.
Oh how I wish my days were still carefree.
I miss being able to have so much fun.
With all the things life has handed me and has yet to, I’ll yearn for the day when authorities will no longer rein.

 the darkness settles in,
A different kind of darkness.
One so familiar, yet at the same time not.
You may try to hide it but it will not work; it can only be suppressed for so long then….
Bam!!
It hits and you’re left …
Wishing that you’re dead.
Sometimes, any escape is better than living you’re life unwanted
And being haunted by someone else’s mistakes.
Feelings of hopelessness and desperation are finally conquered and then I return to my old self again until something else brings me down…
Then the darkness settles in again,
A different kind of darkness.